Wednesday, September 22, 2010

All In

We are no longer living day to day around here, time is now marked in 12 hour increments. That's how quickly things are changing and progressing.

Phil had another MRI this morning and the cultures have yielded more definitive results. Today has been a big and unfortunately, very difficult day. The cultures show absolute evidence of a mixed bacterial and fungal infection in the sinuses and henceforth in the brain. The fungus is called Mucormycosis and is very common in diabetics and immunosuppressed patients. The MRI shows advancement since yesterday of the infection to involve new portions of the brain. So despite having been on high doses of antibiotics and antifungals, ground is not being gained.

The optimal treatment for this fungus is surgical debridement, which although radical, is Phil's best chance for eradicating the infection. Combined with his antifungals, tomorrow morning he will be having a very involved neurosurgery to remove his left sinuses, his left eye and orbit and portions of his left brain that are infected and non-functioning anyway. It's hard core -- as if it wasn't before. During the next several weeks his chemotherapy will have to be put on hold lest any further immunosuppression allow the Mucor to take the upper hand.

We are awaiting the final debriefing from the team of surgeons and are covering Phil with our prayers and love. We (Jeff, David, Anita and I) are also telling stories and laughing a bit too. Phil is tired and a bit fearful for tomorrow's events but he is also ready to go. He's not one to sit back and do nothing if there's something to be done. He's going for it. Bravest man I know, facing down terrible odds and "fighting a raging fire in the middle of a hurricane".

If Phil were playing poker, I'd say he was all in. Trusting God, and all in.

22 comments:

  1. Keeping you guys close in thoughts and prayers

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  2. In my prayers.. I am laying hands on Phil- Begging for Gods mercy & grace. May HIS name be glorified in all that Phil must endure.

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  3. It isn't always easy, but when you're not feeling well...hope it helps to know others are thinking of you... and hoping that Phil will be better very soon. If the future seems overwhelming, remember that it comes one moment at a time...

    Much Love,
    Lisa

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  4. Hoping all goes well (what can be construed as well these days, anyway) tomorrow...

    My utmost thoughts and prayers are with you all - now, tomorrow, and always.

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  5. Sally - Just wanted to let you know that my Jesuit in Residence is going to put in a special intention for Phil tomorrow when he's at our hospital for mass. I'm still working on the mass at our chapel, but I just thought I should let you know that I was able to get something said for tomorrow as well.

    Love and prayers always,
    Michelle

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  6. Praying for peace, comfort and grace for all of you. I can't even imagine the road you are on. Much love.
    Linda

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  7. I am reading this with tearfilled eyes and goosebumped arms. I am so sad, Brad, myself and the boys are praying on our knees for Phil's best outcome.
    Phil is very brave, but you and the kids are too, the reason he fights.
    Love to you all
    Brad, Renee, Chandler, Nolan, and Goo

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  8. Sally, I just sent out a request to prayer to all of our "retreat sisters" that just met this last weekend at Anita's house. We are standing with you and loving you and crying out to God for mercy and deliverance from this raging fire within a hurricane. We love you all so much!
    Laura Robinson Harbert

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  9. Sally, you and you family are in my thoughts, prayers, heart and mind. Please let me know if I can help in anyway. Hang in there.......
    Becky

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  10. Dear Conrad Family,

    All my prayers are with Phil, you, the kids, your family and friends. Sending lots of strength and love. Livestrong

    Cari

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  11. Wow Sally, Ditto what Renee said - I heard from Heather before swim practice, thought of you each turn, wish I could be there with you tomorrow,
    Hugs,
    Heidi

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  12. WOW! Phil, Sally, and Kiddos we are on our knees claiming God's healing over Phil. Love, Jenn, Jeff, and Alexa Joy

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  13. Oh Sally. Please know we are on our knees praying for Phil and all of you. Stay strong.

    Mary Jeane

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  14. Holding you and Phil in our hearts and prayers. Love, Cathy and Duncan

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  15. Can't imagine how challenging your discussions and decisions are these days.... you all are in my thoughts and prayers constantly. Keep on keeping on!

    Love,

    Rave

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  16. Praying for you guys daily, that you will feel his arms carrying you through this.

    -amber and al

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  17. Friends from Edgewood are holding Phil (and family) in our hearts. I can't even count how many old friends are praying for you. We love you and are sending healing energy to you!
    Kathi

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  18. The prayers are strong and so are all of you! I really hope that all of the positive energy and love are felt by all of you right now! You deserve all the blessings there are!
    xo, Vicky

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  19. I have just learned this morning of all this, I had no idea. I am stunned at 1) the incredible horribleness of it, and 2) the steadfastness whoever wrote the latest blog entry (I'm assuming Sally) is showing, confirming that it's the Lord's peace in her heart. Our love to you all, Conrad family.

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  20. Knowing Phil since my days at Ascension, I can only say how say I am and so is Roger..he was a teen when Roger met him. Our prayers are with all of you - that God may heal and create an environment of peace and calm. In His Name, Roger and Joyce Butler

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  21. Sally - thank you so much for helping all of us to keep up with Phil's progress; I know it is difficult but all of Phil and your distant friends appreciate it. Please know that you both are and continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. You two obviously have a huge network of friends and family to help hold you up.

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  22. I am at a lost for words to say.But, what I am doing today is wishing,praying,crying and hoping!
    All my Love and Prayers are with you,family and friends!

    A merry heart doeth good like a medicine:but a broken spirit drieth the bones.
    Proverbs 17:22

    Phil has a merry heart!

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